I folded my clothes, and arranged them in order.
I ensure that everything is in place, and ready to be packed.
Then I started packing, putting them in one by one.
Clothes, shoes, toiletries and food.
In 2 hours time I'll be leaving home again, and report to camp.
I feel sad to leave, but look forward at the same time.
While wearing my uniform, I looked at myself in the mirror.
I took one very good look, from head to toe.
Is this really me? Is that person looking back at me, is myself?
I paused, and looked again.
It is me. Definitely. Positive.
I laughed for a while.
I can't believe I've grown up.
This year, I'll be turning 20. Yes, 20.
And right now, I'm serving my national service.
I used to recall back when I was a kid.
Usually I'll freak out when I heard that all guys must leave home,
and shaved their heads bald.
I rmb praying that I'll never have to go, hoping for a miracle to happen.
Since then, it has been my greatest nightmare.
Over the years as I grew, the nightmare still lived within.
I feared about leaving home,
I feared about not seeing my mother, and family,
I feared about not getting to live with privelages,
I feared about not seeing my friends,
I feared about seeing ghosts instead,
I feared about not being able to do push-ups and pull-ups,
I feared about the intensive trainings, and strict timetable,
most of all, I feared about not coming back, At all.
But today,
As I look back at those fears,
I realised that It has all gone. Vanished.
I realised again, that as you grow up, you'll learn to overcome your fears.
And to do dat, you have to face fear itself in the eyes.
Today, I'm glad to say that Fear is what made me.
Time flies fast, and the next thing I know,
My POP is there.
Somehow I can sense that lotsa of good things are about to come in my life.
Insyallah, it will., and I'll always pray for the best.
I really look forward to this biggest transformation in my life.
Remembering what Fana used to tell me,
"I know that someday you will be the man that you deserve, to be."
From just a boy, to become the Man-of Steel.
I guess it's just about time. =)
-End-
To be more than a name,
Or a face in the crowd,
I know that this is the time,
This is the time of my life.
I ensure that everything is in place, and ready to be packed.
Then I started packing, putting them in one by one.
Clothes, shoes, toiletries and food.
In 2 hours time I'll be leaving home again, and report to camp.
I feel sad to leave, but look forward at the same time.
While wearing my uniform, I looked at myself in the mirror.
I took one very good look, from head to toe.
Is this really me? Is that person looking back at me, is myself?
I paused, and looked again.
It is me. Definitely. Positive.
I laughed for a while.
I can't believe I've grown up.
This year, I'll be turning 20. Yes, 20.
And right now, I'm serving my national service.
I used to recall back when I was a kid.
Usually I'll freak out when I heard that all guys must leave home,
and shaved their heads bald.
I rmb praying that I'll never have to go, hoping for a miracle to happen.
Since then, it has been my greatest nightmare.
Over the years as I grew, the nightmare still lived within.
I feared about leaving home,
I feared about not seeing my mother, and family,
I feared about not getting to live with privelages,
I feared about not seeing my friends,
I feared about seeing ghosts instead,
I feared about not being able to do push-ups and pull-ups,
I feared about the intensive trainings, and strict timetable,
most of all, I feared about not coming back, At all.
But today,
As I look back at those fears,
I realised that It has all gone. Vanished.
I realised again, that as you grow up, you'll learn to overcome your fears.
And to do dat, you have to face fear itself in the eyes.
Today, I'm glad to say that Fear is what made me.
Time flies fast, and the next thing I know,
My POP is there.
Somehow I can sense that lotsa of good things are about to come in my life.
Insyallah, it will., and I'll always pray for the best.
I really look forward to this biggest transformation in my life.
Remembering what Fana used to tell me,
"I know that someday you will be the man that you deserve, to be."
From just a boy, to become the Man-of Steel.
I guess it's just about time. =)
-End-
To be more than a name,
Or a face in the crowd,
I know that this is the time,
This is the time of my life.